Often, I was a wreck, when I got curved by women, or accomplishments didn’t quite happen the way I wanted. As the years went by, I started to not care so much about it.
Let me tell you something- when you nearly become homeless, lose your car, family distances themselves from you.. I wouldn’t cast stones on you when you react with a high degree of emotion. As a man (especially one with autism recently discovered), I had to learn how to re-direct myself in a more logical manner. It has helped.
2019 I really started listening to empowering broadcast, and not so much riff raff. What started as a simple trip on the new freeway turned into a trip to the east valley of Arizona. Apache Junction is BEAUTIFUL, but far as hell lol.
Abw is the place that I’ve shared more info about my son than in real life, because you all have shown love and support for my boy, love and support my family I wish would.
I’ve be open with my autism, and I’m accepted on here. I love that, because people I associate with in real life, don’t really rock with me now since they know that I am autistic, as is my son.
You know what though? I do not let it bother me. I have more purpose, I go to the gym with my brother, I write poetry ( a similar subject the last 18 times I put pen to paper), laugh my ass off on abw posts, and read. I got more going on, then others that have a car (coming soon).
Here’s another one- my former tax guy said in no uncertain terms that I wasn’t shit because I was not advancing fast enough in my life. I’m in my mid 30’s and I was in tears on the entirety of my car ride home.
At the end of the day- I had to pick myself up. I still don’t have a car; it was re-poed two days before my birthday. I was days away from being homeless, that experience will never leave me for as long as I am here. I was fat and depressed. When I went back to the gym in June 2023, I maybe missed one workout during the weekends I usually go workout at. I’ve lost 55 pounds since October 2022, and I still have much to lose. I have a level of confidence, that I never have had before. Fellas/ladies, I don’t have a car, my teeth are jacked up, but I have something that I didn’t think I would ever have again… I have hope and belief in my life again.
In closing, I am going to continue to handle my business, and goals that I have (things that I have shared in other threads, conversations) will be accomplished.
