I have a good number them on the list. See a therapist and take a couple meds, sometimes it works, sometimes meh. Old habits die hard. My therapist, put me on to the book King Warrior Magician Lover, about the male psyche. I always knew the odda were stacked, but I didn't how much more they were stack against me with my Dad incarcerated for most of my life before adulthood. I recommend it if you come from a similar background.
Therapy works. Even if it's to just hit reset for a week. If I don't go, it shows.