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Ill tell yall the worst dream I had.
7 years ago, im at rock bottom. Mid 20s, broke as fuck, no degree, going nowhere quick. I was going through a real breakdown. Shit was dark.
So, I teach myself java, and I fake a resume with 6 years experience. 2-3 months of interviews and I finally get a job.
Im super happy, but also, super scared.
Cause I aint really ever do work in development, just taught myself from watching youtube videos. And then its not like I go for an entry position or internship, I got a job that required 5+ years of experience. So I gotta get there and know what im doing.
So im going through it. Mood swinging every second. One second, im over the moon cause I got a 65k job and its a career job. Next second, im scared as shit that ima get exposed.
Oh, and to add to that, I had to move to NC cause thats where the job was and I aint know anyone in NC and never been there.
So thats the context, im going through it.
Now, the time comes and I go in on my first day. A whole month goes by and im killing it at work. Everyone loves me.
I fucking made it.
Then, I have this dream. Lmaooo. In this dream, it felt like reality was the dream. This dream played out like I just woke up out of a dream and the last month of real life was the dream. Which meant, I was back in the place of uncertainty and being broke with no future and stressing about being exposed on the job. Basically had to do this whole month over again without a gaurantee of success.
I broke down in my dream and hit rock bottom.
Then I woke up. Looked around and saw I was in my NC apartment and getting the job and being successful at it was real.
Couldnt go back to sleep.
I never forget that dream and the context of it. Shit was crazy
7 years ago, im at rock bottom. Mid 20s, broke as fuck, no degree, going nowhere quick. I was going through a real breakdown. Shit was dark.
So, I teach myself java, and I fake a resume with 6 years experience. 2-3 months of interviews and I finally get a job.
Im super happy, but also, super scared.
Cause I aint really ever do work in development, just taught myself from watching youtube videos. And then its not like I go for an entry position or internship, I got a job that required 5+ years of experience. So I gotta get there and know what im doing.
So im going through it. Mood swinging every second. One second, im over the moon cause I got a 65k job and its a career job. Next second, im scared as shit that ima get exposed.
Oh, and to add to that, I had to move to NC cause thats where the job was and I aint know anyone in NC and never been there.
So thats the context, im going through it.
Now, the time comes and I go in on my first day. A whole month goes by and im killing it at work. Everyone loves me.
I fucking made it.
Then, I have this dream. Lmaooo. In this dream, it felt like reality was the dream. This dream played out like I just woke up out of a dream and the last month of real life was the dream. Which meant, I was back in the place of uncertainty and being broke with no future and stressing about being exposed on the job. Basically had to do this whole month over again without a gaurantee of success.
I broke down in my dream and hit rock bottom.
Then I woke up. Looked around and saw I was in my NC apartment and getting the job and being successful at it was real.
Couldnt go back to sleep.
I never forget that dream and the context of it. Shit was crazy