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ABW Interviews: Meeks

What's your favorite hobby?

What's your biggest fear?​

I love video games, listening to music and I love smooth Jazz.
HOWEVER, now that i'm a mother i'm still learning how to manage my time between my daughter, helping mothers with breastfeeding, finding time to sleep and relax or just finding time for myself period... yeah i'll get back to you when I actually figure it all out lol.

My biggest fear is losing my daughter, I miscarried before I met her father. So when I finally got pregnant with my daughter I could barely sleep at night without thinking that every little pain was me miscarrying. Eventually, he told me I had to stop because I was driving myself crazy. After that honestly I stopped even worrying but now that she's actually here that shit is worse lol. I just love her so much, it's a love that I really can't describe but she makes me feel whole and without her I really don't think I'd have a place on earth any more.
 
Completely understandable fear.

I think you spoke on it before, but you and the father of your daughter aren't together. Ofc share whatever you're comfortable with sharing, but why did yall break up? If you could, would you have done things differently to make things work?​
 
Completely understandable fear.

I think you spoke on it before, but you and the father of your daughter aren't together. Ofc share whatever you're comfortable with sharing, but why did yall break up? If you could, would you have done things differently to make things work?​

Well, yeah that's a pretty touchy subject for me and I hid it for a long time but i'm not afraid to speak up about it now.
Her father was abusive towards me. He's the same age as me i'm just a few months older.
He was abusive before I even got pregnant with our daughter and we would break up and get right back together. I could give a million excuses as to why I didn't or couldn't really leave him alone but the bottom line was that I loved him for some reason and it truly may have been the wrong reasons (who knows). He broke me down so bad mentally and emotionally that I truly became dependent on him though. He controlled the money, he controlled everything and my dumb ass let him smh. I worked my ass off when we met, I was working for FedEx and that's where I met him.

The beatings got so bad when I was pregnant though. He would beat in my head like a rag doll, literally. Dragging me, punching me.. He actually backhanded me in the mouth on a ride home from work one night because I tried to talk and defend myself. So yeah, I ended up with my teeth pushed so far back I couldn't close my mouth or eat. I had stitches in my mouth, I had to have emergency work done to pull my teeth back in place. I have scars on my face. I think he really was out to fuck my face up so bad that no one would want me. I knew that I had to leave when I was pregnant, I kept thinking of ways out. I felt like it would probably be impossible now that I had a baby because I was on maternity leave and he took care of everything.

He didn't stop though, he didn't care if I was holding her or anything. He would come at me full force just swinging. It got to the point that I had to stall him just to put my daughter down so that he could fight me. Every time I would threaten to leave he would tell me I could leave but she couldn't. Now, as I said already I LOVE my daughter and I should've left sooner but I didn't so hey.

Final straw was him punching me in the eye while I was holding our daughter, he had been mad at me and I heard her crying while I went to take a shower. When I came out he was just sitting there with her crying with this attitude and he got upset because I asked him why would he let her cry like that. Ultimately, that led to me getting punched in the face and my eye was swollen shut the next day. I basically got beat that whole weekend so that Monday night when he went to work, I called my mother and she talked my ass up out of my home. I had finally left her dad June of 2016.
 
I won't say it was all fights all the time because we had amazing days, weeks even but those times where he was upset.. those were the worse moments for me. If I wouldn't have left though i'd most likely be dead by now.
 
Damn, I'm sorry you had to go through that bullshit. I hate pussy ass niggas like that. Did you have any male family members in that area? Has he been fucked up yet?


Do you think there's anything somebody could've said to you to get you to leave homie or do you think you had to hit rock bottom in a sense, to figure out he aint the nigga for u?
 
Damn, I'm sorry you had to go through that bullshit. I hate pussy ass niggas like that. Did you have any male family members in that area? Has he been fucked up yet?


Do you think there's anything somebody could've said to you to get you to leave homie or do you think you had to hit rock bottom in a sense, to figure out he aint the nigga for u?

I had my younger brothers that didn't live too too far away but I'm glad they didn't get into it.

It was for me to figure out, it was for me to say look enough is enough I want out for good. I'm not sure if anyone could've talked me into leaving him before that moment which led to me leaving.

All I know is that when I did decide to leave it was a step into loving myself much more than I did. It was then that I realized me and my daughter deserved better and it was me putting myself and my daughter first. Who I am now isn't who I was when I left or who I was last year or hell who I was when me and him met. I woke up big time and I learned so much just from being in that toxic relationship.

I know when to leave well enough alone, I know to turn down someone I'm not truly compatible with. I have a new found love and respect for myself and unfortunately that time in my life was what helped.
 
Who's your favorite rapper? Singer? Comedian?

If you could chill with any celeb for a day, dead or alive, who would it be?​
 
Who's your favorite rapper? Singer? Comedian?

If you could chill with any celeb for a day, dead or alive, who would it be?​

I honestly don't think I have a favorite rapper anymore but I love Mobb Deep (R.I.P Prodigy), Lil Kim was one too especially when she did Quiet Storm with Mobb Deep.

My favorite singer or singers rather would have to be Faith Evans and Erykah Badu (Baduizm was on repeat in our house growing up lol).

If I could chill with any celebrity it would be Melissa McCarthy LOL no lie, she is crazy as hell.
 
I honestly don't think I have a favorite rapper anymore but I love Mobb Deep (R.I.P Prodigy), Lil Kim was one too especially when she did Quiet Storm with Mobb Deep.

My favorite singer or singers rather would have to be Faith Evans and Erykah Badu (Baduizm was on repeat in our house growing up lol).

If I could chill with any celebrity it would be Melissa McCarthy LOL no lie, she is crazy as hell.


My nigga @ badu

Who? @ melissa mccarthy



What's something people would be surprised to know about you?
 
My nigga @ badu

Who? @ melissa mccarthy



What's something people would be surprised to know about you?

She played in Identity Thief, The Heat with Sandra Bullock (I think that's her name), she played in Brides Maids...
Oh yeah and she played in the new Ghost Busters movie that came out.


People would be surprised to know that I can actually sing, like real deal actually sing. I never tell anyone because it's not something I want to do. I've been told i'm wasting a talent but again, it's just not what I want to do.
 
People would be surprised to know that I can actually sing, like real deal actually sing. I never tell anyone because it's not something I want to do. I've been told i'm wasting a talent but again, it's just not what I want to do.


That's a thread. Is not using a gift u were blessed with a "waste" or disrespectful? I'll make that one day.


Name your favorite and least favorite posters.
 
That's a thread. Is not using a gift u were blessed with a "waste" or disrespectful? I'll make that one day.


Name your favorite and least favorite posters.

Kandy would have to be one of my favorite posters on here, she cracks me up LOL.
Honestly the majority are cool, they make the page that much more interesting.
I don't really have a least favorite but I do think I may rub some people the wrong way (not that I really care).
 
U don't have to name names, but how many niggas have crept in ur inbox?

Is there any nigga on here you would entertain?​
 
U don't have to name names, but how many niggas have crept in ur inbox?

Is there any nigga on here you would entertain?​

LOL, only 4 have been in my inbox altogether.

To your second question yes but i'll leave it at that, lol.
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And believe it or not, there are some really cool dudes on here. Some I gotta yanno...straighten out but for the most part it's a smooth "it ain't happening" and that's it.
 
What's your most embarrassing moment?​

This was when I went back to Memphis in like 2012 and my mom had cooked a bomb ass dinner. It was done early too like the sun was still up. So I sit down in one of those white plastic chairs and I'm about to go to town on my food. Next thing you know, the damn legs to the chair gave up on my life. I'm assuming this was something they all decided at once but the legs to the chair went just like this )( and I fell backwards, the gravy from the roast burned me though, my neck, my face, and my damn back and guess what? I had my bowl in my hand with all my food still in it while I was laying on the floor LMAO. I got back up and got myself together so i can eat my food. My mother just finished laughing at that last week, smh.
 
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