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I have been left to make the hardest decision I have ever had to make. Every time that my dad has been taken off the incubator to try to see if he could breathe on his own, all of his numbers have gone down. His lungs are very bad off and the doctors have to check his heart to see if there’s any blood back washing. I talked to my brother earlier and he told me that he is leaving the decision to me. My anxiety is through the roof and I still have to tell my girls how bad off their granddad is. I don’t have many friends to tell all of this to, but a lot of you have helped not just me but a lot of us in here when it’s a serious conversation.
 
Sony Montana said:
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Sometimes I just don’t be caring about shit and I’m floating through life without a purpose. I’m making the lord upset by taking blessings unserious, if not flat out being completely unappreciative.

It’s during these times, that I’m bold enough to invite a woman over and put on the Earl sweatshirt and see if I can still make her wanna have sex.

Cause if I can do that, what can’t I do?
 
Big_Ev said:
I have been left to make the hardest decision I have ever had to make. Every time that my dad has been taken off the incubator to try to see if he could breathe on his own, all of his numbers have gone down. His lungs are very bad off and the doctors have to check his heart to see if there’s any blood back washing. I talked to my brother earlier and he told me that he is leaving the decision to me. My anxiety is through the roof and I still have to tell my girls how bad off their granddad is. I don’t have many friends to tell all of this to, but a lot of you have helped not just me but a lot of us in here when it’s a serious conversation.
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My grandad just passed away two days before Christmas and his funeral was yesterday

I’m sorry you’re going through it fam and I understand it’s a hard situation to navigate. Prayers for your pops
 
Must be that time of year..my Aunt, was essentially my mother. I got a chance in the past view weeks to tell her that, even though I didn’t act like that when I was younger.

But I been watched her decline in a matter of a 2 months. Last night, my other aunt called me and told me to come to the hospital. She talked around it but essentially was saying, come say your last goodbye.

So I get there, all kinds of tubes and wires, my uncle is there. I walk in and I didn’t know how to feel. I was scared because I thought I didn’t feel anything and I thought he would see that I felt nothing and would feel a way.

Then he mentioned that it’s in the hands of the lord. So I thought, oh yea, the lord, let me ask the lord for a miracle.

So I grabbed her hand and it was ice cold. Then I started to pray, and as I was praying. I felt a feeling like she told me to stop, and she said goodbye.

Then her eyes, which had been closed the whole time, they opened and looked at me, but she wasn’t behind them. Then I just started to cry..I haven’t cried in years, just started to cry.

Then I spoke with my uncle, we didn’t even talk about the situation, we was talking and laughing bout colon checks and the new cars cutting off when they stop.

That went on a for moment, then I left. My aunt called me around 12am and said she gone.

I’m happy she’s in a better place, but me right now, I just feel like..when is this shit gonna feel fair. She didn’t deserve to die like that.
 
Alle’Oxin’Free said:
Must be that time of year..my Aunt, was essentially my mother. I got a chance in the past view weeks to tell her that, even though I didn’t act like that when I was younger.

But I been watched her decline in a matter of a 2 months. Last night, my other aunt called me and told me to come to the hospital. She talked around it but essentially was saying, come say your last goodbye.

So I get there, all kinds of tubes and wires, my uncle is there. I walk in and I didn’t know how to feel. I was scared because I thought I didn’t feel anything and I thought he would see that I felt nothing and would feel a way.

Then he mentioned that it’s in the hands of the lord. So I thought, oh yea, the lord, let me ask the lord for a miracle.

So I grabbed her hand and it was ice cold. Then I started to pray, and as I was praying. I felt a feeling like she told me to stop, and she said goodbye.

Then her eyes, which had been closed the whole time, they opened and looked at me, but she wasn’t behind them. Then I just started to cry..I haven’t cried in years, just started to cry.

Then I spoke with my uncle, we didn’t even talk about the situation, we was talking and laughing bout colon checks and the new cars cutting off when they stop.

That went on a for moment, then I left. My aunt called me around 12am and said she gone.

I’m happy she’s in a better place, but me right now, I just feel like..when is this shit gonna feel fair. She didn’t deserve to die like that.
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I’m sorry for your loss man
 
Big_Ev said:
I have been left to make the hardest decision I have ever had to make. Every time that my dad has been taken off the incubator to try to see if he could breathe on his own, all of his numbers have gone down. His lungs are very bad off and the doctors have to check his heart to see if there’s any blood back washing. I talked to my brother earlier and he told me that he is leaving the decision to me. My anxiety is through the roof and I still have to tell my girls how bad off their granddad is. I don’t have many friends to tell all of this to, but a lot of you have helped not just me but a lot of us in here when it’s a serious conversation.
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I'm so sorry about your dad hun. He knows you will make the best decision for him....
 
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