I definitely need mental rest more than anything, I was working out this morning and I just could not stop thinking. So I got mad with myself and said “Jesus man, can’t you just shut the fuck up for 24 minutes, that’s all this is gonna take, for 24 minutes just shut the fuck up and be in the moment” . That lead down a another rabbit hole of thinking and I just had to stop and mediate, which lead down another rabbit hole of, do you really have the time to not be doing something more productive than this. I think in my sleep BA, I close my eyes and don’t even dream, I spend 6 to 8 hours at night talking to myself in my sleep. It’s like I don’t even sleep, I wake up and my body is rested by my mind never went to sleep. It’s fucking torture.
I talk to myself like that too. Idk what the contents of your thoughts were but the last week my mind was trying to do me in good. I'm living my life great doing new things and in come these asshole thoughts, "you don't know wtf you're doing BA. You've never done this before. You only think you can(and of course more shitty words from that 'sick' part of the mind that likes to see us suffer that I've talked about b4)" The anxiety it was producing was making me wanna pass out. I smoked the rest of my joint and laid down in bed and closed my eyes.
I said God, I need you to take these cares and worries from my mind, they are plauging my mind and can't think of anything else. The torment is too great and I need you to take on this burden for me. Give me your strength and courage to let these thoughts go.
I laid there for a minutes and then got up and carried on with my day. It's took about 2.5 hrs for the thoughts to finally abate but at least they weren't as strong after I asked God to care and worry for me. It does normally happen faster but this shit had me fucked up.
And don't worry, you don't have to believe in God, I'm Biblical Atheist, but I highly recommend this tool.
You also have to spend time refocusing, repeatedly if necessary. I had to force my mind into distraction after the 'prayer'. Come on ABW and read or post, watch/listen to videos/podcasts. Something enjoyable even if I should be doing something more important, you need to get the to settle mind. Yeah I shoulda been reading reports and shit but I need mental peace so I'm gonna jam tfo to music, bop around BA style and redirect and let go cuz at the end of the day... I'm alive and not in jail.
I use music to project unwanted thoughts/energy into. That's why my playlists are the way they are because of different needs/purposes. It's also good sometimes to just let your mind have its fit, I let it do it only through music so it associates that with mental dumps or processing. I find music where it can play out its 'dreams' and when I feel it can let it go then I move onto other things.
Like I said, idk the full context of your thoughts but these are few ways I deal with pervasive/persistent thoughts, with great success, that's why I'll tell anyone to try it out. What's the worst that can happen? You're no better of than before?
Forget not the body is crafty. And while it cannot think persay its quite adept at getting outta shit it doesn't really wanna do and it will use your mind to get what it wants. Maybe it didn't really work out. Your mind will play the same games. You gotta study something but all the sudden your sleepy as hell cant keep your eyes open for shit, your mind isn't to keen on doing that shit rn, maybe ever and so a battle ensues.
