When you feel powerless, you admire the powerful. Not only do you admire the powerful, you take on the traits of the powerful. All of this is human, all of this is normal, no one should feel bad about this being the case.
The problem is, much like social media, you more often only see the desirable parts of power. You see ordering others around, you see taking what you want by force or forceful negotiation, you see a disregard of others and a emphasis on self.
Now for someone powerless who doesn’t know what it’s like to have power. This leads them to believe that the only part they see, is what power is. They don’t see the human side.
They don’t see what relates to them as of now, the self doubt, the fear, the anxiety, the heartbreaking decisions, the self loathing, the disconnection to those they love. The desire to be loved, even though the more power they gain, the less true love exists.
When you feel powerless, you admire those with power. When you get power, you realize power is just you with power, or better yet. What you thought was power. So unless you work on you, you’ll just be you with more stuff. Go to the store by skittles, that’s you with more stuff.