ImaInfluenza
Who do you think you are? I am
Ima just get right into it…
Ima handsome dude, cause I can recognize that I’m a handsome guy, I can also recognize other men that are handsome. That being said, I am aware of the fact that though I can recognize they are handsome, i don’t want to have sex with them. And because I know that what makes a gay man gay, is his desire to and direct action of sleeping with another man.
Now consider a child for a moment that has been preached to within our community about the negative things of being gay. To think all things that don’t fit into a very strict stereotype is sus, and gay. What then does that child have to think of himself when he undoubtedly is able to determine that another man is attractive. Does he wrongly and secretively at that point assume he may be gay? How far does he take the curiosity to find out if he is?
Consider that if a fathers fear of their child being exposed to the reality of gay men, isn’t that they child will be full on gay, but that their child my do some gay things out of curiosity. Then isn’t it the toxic environment towards gays in the community that will push that into happening, more so than just accepting the reality of the gay people in our community?
And I know how on this board people say we love to talk about gays and niggaz love to be gay friendly and shit. When I was younger I was extremely homophobic, because of the environment and the gay people that I knew within the environment. It wasn’t till I got older that I realized that within our community, gay people were delegated to a sub class. That most of them walked around bitter and messy, not because of who they inherently were, but because of how they were treated.
One thing I can say for the gay men I met in the hood, is they never seemed pressed to be wit nobody, and always seemed single and happy. Take into account how many dudes was actually fucking wit the’ on the low. So when one of them got messy and outted, someone. Everyone would get mad at them.
But you gotta figure, imagine you been delegated to this sub class in the community, people constantly treat you like you are filth, dudes are messing with you on the low. A rumor comes out that you have HIV, you don’t, but because you are gay it takes hold, you are seen as even less human, then you find out the person who started the rumor…was some dude that fucks wit you on the low..
How then would you expect that person to react? On a mental level, shits way more deep than we’d like to apply our Minds to. Like we are afraid that at the end of the day, we’d find tolerance.
Ima handsome dude, cause I can recognize that I’m a handsome guy, I can also recognize other men that are handsome. That being said, I am aware of the fact that though I can recognize they are handsome, i don’t want to have sex with them. And because I know that what makes a gay man gay, is his desire to and direct action of sleeping with another man.
Now consider a child for a moment that has been preached to within our community about the negative things of being gay. To think all things that don’t fit into a very strict stereotype is sus, and gay. What then does that child have to think of himself when he undoubtedly is able to determine that another man is attractive. Does he wrongly and secretively at that point assume he may be gay? How far does he take the curiosity to find out if he is?
Consider that if a fathers fear of their child being exposed to the reality of gay men, isn’t that they child will be full on gay, but that their child my do some gay things out of curiosity. Then isn’t it the toxic environment towards gays in the community that will push that into happening, more so than just accepting the reality of the gay people in our community?
And I know how on this board people say we love to talk about gays and niggaz love to be gay friendly and shit. When I was younger I was extremely homophobic, because of the environment and the gay people that I knew within the environment. It wasn’t till I got older that I realized that within our community, gay people were delegated to a sub class. That most of them walked around bitter and messy, not because of who they inherently were, but because of how they were treated.
One thing I can say for the gay men I met in the hood, is they never seemed pressed to be wit nobody, and always seemed single and happy. Take into account how many dudes was actually fucking wit the’ on the low. So when one of them got messy and outted, someone. Everyone would get mad at them.
But you gotta figure, imagine you been delegated to this sub class in the community, people constantly treat you like you are filth, dudes are messing with you on the low. A rumor comes out that you have HIV, you don’t, but because you are gay it takes hold, you are seen as even less human, then you find out the person who started the rumor…was some dude that fucks wit you on the low..
How then would you expect that person to react? On a mental level, shits way more deep than we’d like to apply our Minds to. Like we are afraid that at the end of the day, we’d find tolerance.
