Why she don’t want me, man?

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didnt wanna bog down the random thread wit this but I need some advice if y’all can give it. I’m faced with a situation that’s foreign to me.

So here’s the situation,..growing up my mother wasn’t in my life like most of you would consider a mother. Basically she existed and I was aware of her existence.

There was a point in my life that I had not communicated wit her for so long, that I had forgotten she even existed until my grandmother told me she was on the phone.

There was a point in my teenage years where I tried to obtain the relationship with her, but I found out harshly that she just isn’t built like that. My sisters, most of them love her and accept her for who she is.

I wasn’t around, so I don’t understand the bond and how it was crafted but that’s them and ion knock em. But everything I ever thought a mother was and seen a mother was. Far as I can tell I’m dealing and talking wit her. That ain’t her.

So you know, rather then grow up some pussy wit mommy issues. At a certain point in my life I just accepted that I don’t have a mother. I mean I have a mother but I don’t have a mom.

So as I go through life, get my life right, get focused. I start heading on the right track, and all of a sudden she starts making an assertive effort to come down south, text me, call me, interact wit me. But it don’t feel motherly at all. It feels forced like she’s tryna long con me.

But I’m at this point where I wanna be like, ..”nah, I’m cool on all that”. Like, she’s been lately tryna take trips down south to stay at my home. Tryna get holidays where all of us, my sisters, our s/o , and our kids spend the holidays together.

Just recently she started a group chat wit her, my sisters and I. Now I know y’all like why u so suspicious she just wanna make up for lost time...but fam

That...ain’t...who..she...is, that ain’t who I know. She be having me thinking like, she only doing the group chat so when she say some positive shit to her kids and everybody respond but me..niggaz gone be looking at me like..

I’m still bitter or some shit, and I ain’t..but bruh...

So I done lost my place in this shit, fuck was I gone ask y’all. Oh yeah, how y’all think I should handle this shit. Cause me being me, all I know how to do is be cold hearted in situations like this. But y’all warm hearted and normal folk..no diss

What’s the normal thing to do here?
 
As a person who lost their mom when they were a teen I wish I can still talk to her. Your mother is trying to establish a relationship with her children, better late than never. Give her a chance and if it doesn't work out at least you tried to connect with her.
 
As a person who lost their mom when they were a teen I wish I can still talk to her. Your mother is trying to establish a relationship with her children, better late than never. Give her a chance and if it doesn't work out at least you tried to connect with her.
My condolences, and I feel u...but I don’t wanna connect wit her...what’s the normal way to remove myself from that situation?
 
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Not even, hand to god I’m being so real and truthful right now.

All my young life I wanted a mother, I went to her to have her as my mother. Got denied, got upset, beefed wit her for years, finally accepted it’s not meant to be, move forward and now she wants a relationship Im not capable of having wit her..

Bruh I’m deadass not even sure what that relationship is supposed to be like..like I can see it on tv and from friends...but I don’t know how it feels.. when i try, I just don’t feel good
 
So Whiskas is your sister for sure now?
She might be, ion know

Stop basing what you think a mom is supposed to be off of tv and other relationships and try to let it just happen. If you don’t feel right then, let it go.

U love ur mother kandy? You know how it feels to miss ur mother really bad? You know how it feels when u talk with your mother?

Now imagine all of that without that feeling?

But like I said, i don’t want the relationship. What is a nice and normal way to let her know, that I’m cool on that..how would u do it!
 
Dude, I went through the exact same shit with my pops.

That Nigga died like last year...

I mean....I invited him to the wedding....He ain't show....

But I mean, that was expected...I held no ill will towards dude...

I just accepted dude for who he was and kept it moving...

When he passed it was like a relief....I never have to go through that awkward moment of emotion when it comes to him....

Like dude sent me a Facebook request, and it took me like a week to accept cuz I didn't feel like "patching things up" and was hoping that wasn't what he was looking for...

Thankfully he wasn't...He just ain't good at internet so none of that shit really mattered to him.....

I don't envy your position bruh.

If you're anything like me you'd just go through motions wondering what's wrong with you, cuz this shit is doing nothing for you emotionally. It's just awkward needles affection.

If you're like my one sister you spazz out.
My other sister lobbied and begged for his attention.
My brother just tolerated him, he was a old stupid man with no real friends, so my brother pitied him.

I just didn't give a fuck. I tired as much as I could to not be a complete dick about it. But at the same time not go out my way, cuz I don't like being phoney. Thankfully he rarely put us in that position
 
U get it Du...

And the fucked up thing is, ion wanna be dick about it..and I’ve told her some of this before. But it’s just lately she’s been extra wit it for some reason.. ion get it
 
When my father got cancer and had some cancer party with all his friends, my oldest sister and brother were there...

My sister the spazz ended up going out of spite cuz she was mad she wasn't invited....then she got there and realized how out of place she felt and called me to come.

I went, and was just being my normal self, he eventually came over,, bought all his kids a round, and took a picture with us. And that was it. I think our conversation was as simple as

You good? You in pain? You happy?

He was like yea he cool....

And that was it....year or two later he died....And I'm 100% good with it....

I woulda dreaded him saying he was sorry, or trying to hug, or anything that just ain't what it is.

People gotta realize some of the dumb shit you do to your kids shapes their personalities. It creates their identity. It fuels their defenses.

You can't just go to that like .....I'm sorry, I was geeking....And think that's gonna fix it.....

You gotta deal with what the fuck you created. And if you gotta cold hearted kid who don't fuck with you cuz they had to deal with your shit as a child and still be normal as possible. Then so be it....

I never understood people who just need that approval or acceptance from a fucked up parent. I don't need reconciliation....just let that shit go. It was the past, we don't fuck with each other, that's life. Move on.

That's me tho
 
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