Yea bruh. Appreciate you remembering.
Im at the point of thinking its part low level PTSD and part narcissism and ego.
I'll probably go to a therapist for it in the next few years.
i think you should save your money....
you just have to be honest with yourself.
are you chasing or running from something?
is it your own goals or demons or something someone put on you?
are you proving something to yourself or to someone else?
or are you distracting yourself from your truth?
these are questions i had to ask myself and it took a long time for me to be honest about what it is/was.
you will need alot of time by yourself in order to place things in order and figure it out.
save your therapist money and use it to take a trip somewhere quiet.
and if need be...speak only to people who have your best interest in mind...not what can benefit them and no yes men.
once you figure this out.....you will get what i am saying.