(high thread) if you knew the day you were going to go..... How would you feel,?

Watching people die slow might change your perspective. Worker of life is more important to me than just living. I've seen a lotta loved ones sugar over a period of time that just seemed cruel to me.

I've had a family member that died from ALS. She spent the last 5 years of her life in and out of hospitals. I wouldn't wish that on anyone or myself. I watched my grandfather and now my uncle suffer from dementia. I'd rather not.. My sister's mom's had it too.... Those last years were horrific.

Someone having to change your diapers. Having to live in a facility or nursing home.. Being limited to a chair or a bed. Only being able to live on one floor because steps are impossible.

Getting old sucks.

Getting sick sucks.

Being old and sick, I'd rather not.

I'm more afraid of losing my mind and the ability to dress myself than death.

I don't ever want my children to have to deal with me forgetting their names.
Or for them to have to put their lives on hold to take care of me. I never wanna be a burden on anybody.
 
TheNightKing said:
There’s been a lot of progress on Alzheimer’s treatments so you might be ok by then.
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My uncle going thru it right now, I almost put hands on my cousin once, cuz we over there watching boxing.. Having a good time.. And this nigga trying to get him to remember shit. He literally mourned his sister all over again because he forgot she died. Shit had me furious
 
Duwop said:
Watching people die slow might change your perspective. Worker of life is more important to me than just living. I've seen a lotta loved ones sugar over a period of time that just seemed cruel to me.

I've had a family member that died from ALS. She spent the last 5 years of her life in and out of hospitals. I wouldn't wish that on anyone or myself. I watched my grandfather and now my uncle suffer from dementia. I'd rather not.. My sister's mom's had it too.... Those last years were horrific.

Someone having to change your diapers. Having to live in a facility or nursing home.. Being limited to a chair or a bed. Only being able to live on one floor because steps are impossible.

Getting old sucks.

Getting sick sucks.

Being old and sick, I'd rather not.

I'm more afraid of losing my mind and the ability to dress myself than death.

I don't ever want my children to have to deal with me forgetting their names.
Or for them to have to put their lives on hold to take care of me. I never wanna be a burden on anybody.
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I’m with you on not burdening my family with my old age. If I can’t make it so I be put down once I’m basically a shell of myself, put me in a home and don’t feel obligated to come through. I should be good enough financially by then to not burden them financially either.
 
Sky Davis said:
Word word

I’m pulling for you to have a strong next 30 years minimum not that weak 15 you talking about

Fuck nigga
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Odds say 70's going to be horrible. All suffering.
Chi-Town B said:
Du said fuck his grandkids.
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I never met 3 of them, and the one I did, we had to take care of him the last 3 years of his life.

He had Alzheimer's, couldn't remember my name, routinely had accidents, and was angry with us because he lost his independence and couldn't figure anything out. It essentially traumatized me to have this morbid outlook on old age.

If I could spare everyone from watching me go through that. I would 100%.
 
Duwop said:
Watching people die slow might change your perspective. Worker of life is more important to me than just living. I've seen a lotta loved ones sugar over a period of time that just seemed cruel to me.

I've had a family member that died from ALS. She spent the last 5 years of her life in and out of hospitals. I wouldn't wish that on anyone or myself. I watched my grandfather and now my uncle suffer from dementia. I'd rather not.. My sister's mom's had it too.... Those last years were horrific.

Someone having to change your diapers. Having to live in a facility or nursing home.. Being limited to a chair or a bed. Only being able to live on one floor because steps are impossible.

Getting old sucks.

Getting sick sucks.

Being old and sick, I'd rather not.

I'm more afraid of losing my mind and the ability to dress myself than death.

I don't ever want my children to have to deal with me forgetting their names.
Or for them to have to put their lives on hold to take care of me. I never wanna be a burden on anybody.
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So knowing what you know, what are you doing to be proactive? Things ain’t written in stone. It almost sounds like you’ve given in on the idea of checking out early. I think it’s a worse type of hell to have your mentality and actually end up living a healthy long life. What if you end up living far beyond your expectations in decent health?

 
Bruh, they ask your family history for a reason.

No one in my family hits 90... Both sides.

And everybody suffers after 70.

We ain't got no happy bouncy vibrant old people in my family.. Never have.

How many people can tell you they've never met their grandmother. Only 1 grandfather. And most of your memories are of him suffering.

Like I get it, some of y'all grew up around old folks still in there 80s and 90s still moving around, driving all that shit.

They literally took my uncle's driver's license from him at 71. And he was in good shape. It wasn't the body for him, the mind went first. He calls my mom crying cuz he's so confused all the time. And they got money.... Good enough money to where he's still taken care of physically. He's just gone mentally.

That shit ain't living.
 
I honestly think it would feel like a death sentence knowing the time and day my lights go out.

The crazy thing is i usually only think of my mortality and life in this way if I let my mind wander before I go to sleep
 
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Duwop said:
Watching people die slow might change your perspective. Worker of life is more important to me than just living. I've seen a lotta loved ones sugar over a period of time that just seemed cruel to me.

I've had a family member that died from ALS. She spent the last 5 years of her life in and out of hospitals. I wouldn't wish that on anyone or myself. I watched my grandfather and now my uncle suffer from dementia. I'd rather not.. My sister's mom's had it too.... Those last years were horrific.

Someone having to change your diapers. Having to live in a facility or nursing home.. Being limited to a chair or a bed. Only being able to live on one floor because steps are impossible.

Getting old sucks.

Getting sick sucks.

Being old and sick, I'd rather not.

I'm more afraid of losing my mind and the ability to dress myself than death.

I don't ever want my children to have to deal with me forgetting their names.
Or for them to have to put their lives on hold to take care of me. I never wanna be a burden on anybody.
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You're the 1st black person I've "come across" that has had Als in their family ...aint no joke
 
I aint got the personality to where i could know that and function well

Id stress out to the point where I'd advance that date
 
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Greg.nice said:
I aint got the personality to where i could know that and function well

Id stress out to the point where advance that date
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I'd be so chill about it. I think I would actually feel motivated to get certain shit done I've been putting off.

Like I keep saying I wanna get back into Mauy Thai.... Maybe take a trip to Thailand. If I knew I only had 2-3 years left, shit now is the time.. But as it stands. I keep putting it off. Maybe later. And I'm like that with a lotta shit. Having a clock would make shit more of a priority.
 
Nah I wouldn't wanna know. Anxiety would whoop my ass knowing each day is literally a countdown. Wouldn't really be able to enjoy shit because it would be at the forefront of my mind for everything. I don't actually fear death though as in the concept of it...I do fear certain ways of dying though.
 
I'm not afraid if death. But I am afraid of being a burden on my family, even if they never admitted it.
 
if I know thats the only way I can go and Im an invincible to any other way man Im going to start trying shit......on to of trying to cram as much life as possible in what i got left
 
loud-ninja said:
This is what you think about when you're high? You might have the wrong weed.
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Don't blame it on the weed bruh. I did a term paper on death, near death experiences, and what's on the other side when my grandfather died in 7th grade....

It's just the shit I think about.... Sometimes when I high it's heightened
 
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