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Me I'm Supa Fly
I searched the forum for a discussion thread about mental health and didn't find any, so please excuse me if there is one.
But I created this thread so that we can share resources on info and things that work or didn't work when it comes to mental health.
This part of DMXs "Stop Being Greedy" always struck me to the core.
I could flip that flow, I could stick that ho
I could get that dough, you know I'm with that yo
Ain't no thing about the shit I came through, or haven't seen
But when it gets dark, it's like a nigga's having dreams
All nightmares, the light there deserts me
Got me like everybody wants to hurt me
Paranoid, so I strike out at whatever
When I was young and I heard that I never knew why that got to me so much, till I got older and realized with me being bi-polar. That's how my days would feel, one moment all is well and I understand that I'm cared for and I feel cared for.
Then at some point in the day, I just felt like everyone was the enemy and it felt so real. Recently I've for about a month finally took action and thankfully got the right prescription for meds. It's evened me out so much and opened my eyes to the reality of how essential mental health is.
As the drug takes effect in my brain, there are points..gaps, in the day where there's a transition of thought with how I was thinking and how I think now. I felt like I was living in two realities. One where I was happy and I saw a positive opportunity for thought in every thing.
Then there was one that makes me feel like that reality was a complete lie. I was lying to myself and I'm mad pussy for trying to escape the reality of how evil the world is. It made me feel like I ain't shit and anyone who is around me ain't shit even worse. Cause they refuse to be honest about how ain't shit I am. And it makes hate them and want to harm them.
After I would take my daily dose, those thoughts would slip away. I spoke to my mother who is a mental health advocate. I told her I felt like I was losing my mind, I don't know which reality is real. She told me,.."We aren't alive to live in unhappiness, anger, and paranoia. The fact that I have to tell you that it's true that you can be loved should tell you the reality that you don't feel loved isnt the real reality".
Which bugged me out because until she told me that, I was convinced the happy reality was fake. That's how real mental health is, if I was a weaker nigga, Ida bodied myself off of pure self hatred that had no actually reality to it.
So I wanna say to anyone that is suffering from it. Please, please, don't think that those thoughts and that thought process is a reality you have to live with. There's no weakness in admitting your not strong enough to do it on your own.
But I created this thread so that we can share resources on info and things that work or didn't work when it comes to mental health.
This part of DMXs "Stop Being Greedy" always struck me to the core.
I could flip that flow, I could stick that ho
I could get that dough, you know I'm with that yo
Ain't no thing about the shit I came through, or haven't seen
But when it gets dark, it's like a nigga's having dreams
All nightmares, the light there deserts me
Got me like everybody wants to hurt me
Paranoid, so I strike out at whatever
When I was young and I heard that I never knew why that got to me so much, till I got older and realized with me being bi-polar. That's how my days would feel, one moment all is well and I understand that I'm cared for and I feel cared for.
Then at some point in the day, I just felt like everyone was the enemy and it felt so real. Recently I've for about a month finally took action and thankfully got the right prescription for meds. It's evened me out so much and opened my eyes to the reality of how essential mental health is.
As the drug takes effect in my brain, there are points..gaps, in the day where there's a transition of thought with how I was thinking and how I think now. I felt like I was living in two realities. One where I was happy and I saw a positive opportunity for thought in every thing.
Then there was one that makes me feel like that reality was a complete lie. I was lying to myself and I'm mad pussy for trying to escape the reality of how evil the world is. It made me feel like I ain't shit and anyone who is around me ain't shit even worse. Cause they refuse to be honest about how ain't shit I am. And it makes hate them and want to harm them.
After I would take my daily dose, those thoughts would slip away. I spoke to my mother who is a mental health advocate. I told her I felt like I was losing my mind, I don't know which reality is real. She told me,.."We aren't alive to live in unhappiness, anger, and paranoia. The fact that I have to tell you that it's true that you can be loved should tell you the reality that you don't feel loved isnt the real reality".
Which bugged me out because until she told me that, I was convinced the happy reality was fake. That's how real mental health is, if I was a weaker nigga, Ida bodied myself off of pure self hatred that had no actually reality to it.
So I wanna say to anyone that is suffering from it. Please, please, don't think that those thoughts and that thought process is a reality you have to live with. There's no weakness in admitting your not strong enough to do it on your own.
