Speaking of college,
i was in a horrible horrible friend zone situation that almost dead a whole friendship.....
because of the previous story i told everyone in college i had a girl back home, and i didn't cheat, so i couldn't move single.
there were a few chicks was definitely feeling......but again i was "in a relationship"
well after Christmas break, i was single....but i admittedly was horrible at that shit..it took me a minute to get the whole expressing your emotions thing clearly, and unfortunately for me college wasn't it.
one of the females i was closest with, i had a serious thing for. and it was pretty clear. I mean all my friends knew, all her friends knew, her roommates knew, everybody knew.... but to her, i was just a friend....
and i was trying my best to work my way out, but i felt doomed...
one of my home girls pointed out that she had all the benefits of a boyfriend with none of the commitment, and all i get out the deal is blue balls...
well after one long ass night with her at the airport where her flight was cancelled and she had to wait till the morning, so i came up to the airport and waited with her so her phone wouldn't die cuz she was pretty much on the phone with me the whole time... i was like fuck it, friend zone be damned imma put it out there....
so i wrote a very direct and feelings motivated letter...
got nothing in return.....in fact i felt like i was ducked the rest of the school year, and not contacted all summer....so i really felt like i blew it....
sophomore year starts back up, shorty comes back to school, and now she the one with a boyfriend at home....i felt like i was shitted on something terrible......cuz she talked everybody about it, but me..
everybody knew shorty had a man but me, everybody talked to her but me......so yea i was in my feelings for MONTHS!! like from September till about January i wouldn't speak to shorty at all....shit was awkward for our entire circle of friends but i gave no fucks. I made sure she saw me chilling and having fun with as many different chicks as possible...
never mind you wasn't fucking none of them..... but she still had to see it and wonder...i'd be kicking it with chicks from other schools an everything....
just a whole bunch of messy awkwardness...
we eventually patched it up and agreed to be friends.....but that shit was forever tainted..it was like someone you was really cool with, but can't really talk to them no more....